As most of you may know, I am a certified preschool teacher WOOT WOOT! Lol! My hope is to go
as far as I can in the area of education. For the past two months or so, I was in a weird place of
emptiness. I was just tired of coming to work, my attitude was blah, I couldn't wait to get out of
work, I couldn't wait til Friday and I couldn't stand Monday's. As each day went by, I realize that
I was losing my self and who I was. I didn't pray as much as I use to and I stopped asking God for
help and confirmation in my decision making. I was comfortable in this place and stayed in that
comfort for a while. I was immune to MY way of thinking and I did not give God nor the Holy
Spirit any room or space to help me. I was stuck. I lost who I was and I didn't know how to find
So one day I was in a meeting at work with my bosses and other leaders. We were all trying to
come together to see how I can help improve the school with my skills and outside experience
with kids. As I shared some of the things I'm pretty good at such as computer work, fundraising,
communication with parents, organization, administration, etc.; one of my bosses that knew me
pretty well, especially with ministry work talked about me a little more. As he was speaking and
sharing with everyone what I do and who I am, I was so interested to know who he was talking
about at first lol. I couldn't believe it was me honestly. I was so swallowed in my emotions, I
couldn't agree with everything that he said I was. After the meeting, I was in awe and
disappointed at the same time because all that he said about me, I could no longer see in
myself. My heart ached, I wanted to cry but I couldn't.
A few weeks prior to the meeting was
very rough too. I said things that I would never say, my attitude was immature and my pride
overpowered my humility. I say all this to let you know to stay with God when things get rough.
I know that sounds cliché but this was my first time experiencing very rough weeks at work. It's
only been about 6 or 7 months that I've been working and working a full time REAL job.
Everything is a learning experience for me as I go. Again I say, stay with Christ and let him guide
your every step, your every move, your decisions, your ideas and more. I don't know about you
but, I know what it's like to do everything on your own without consulting Christ…..and it stinks.
It feels like something is missing, like leaving your house without your cell phone or your
earrings, it's a naked feeling. When God is involved in every aspect of your life, you will feel
whole, you will feel complete and at peace. It reminds me of Jesus and his followers. Before
they met Jesus, they were just working just to work, living just to live, walking with no purpose,
giving with no joy. It was a meaningless lifestyle that was going no where. They were also not
aware of who they were in Christ. Just living under the rules or the law can make you feel like a
robot or like you have nothing else to offer other than your labor and sacrifices. Remember
who you are in Christ and know your worth. Don't let the little things that you can easily get
over in a few minutes or hours eat you alive. There is power in the name of Jesus (Tasha Cobbs
voice lol) and all you have to do is say His name every know and then.
After seeking God more
and renewing my mind, I am a better version of myself than I was before. I know who I am and I
thank God for people that know and define me by my spirit and not by my flesh. I pray that you
were blessed, motivated, inspired or uplifted through this post. Don't forget who you are and
don't let the troubles of this world change you…we are citizens of Gods kingdom passing
through. Here are a few Biblical truths about who you are in God, to read more click on the link.
I am complete in Him Who is the Head of all principality and power (Colossians 2:10).
I am alive with Christ (Ephesians 2:5).
I am free from the law of sin and death (Romans 8:2).
I am far from oppression, and fear does not come near me (Isaiah 54:14).
I am born of God, and the evil one does not touch me (1 John 5:18).
I am holy and without blame before Him in love (Ephesians 1:4; 1 Peter 1:16).
I have the mind of Christ (1 Corinthians 2:16; Philippians 2:5).
I have the peace of God that passes all understanding (Philippians 4:7).
I have the Greater One living in me; greater is He Who is in me than he who is in the world (1
My name is Raquel Meraki and I'm a young woman who is on the journey of self discovery and independence.