For a year and 5 months, I've prayed and asked God what I should be doing with my life. My main goal is to make my mother proud and to do what I love for a living. There were many moments where I felt like it wasn't happening and that I will always be a disappointment. After college many graduates want money, an apartment, a good job, and overall stability. I hated change, I hated moving from job to job, and I hated that my life was not turning out the way I planned it. I believe that's where God had to step in and remind me that I can't do it alone. Many times I felt that everything is suppose to line up and be perfect. When I learned that's not the case, it took a toll on me. The life that we live is not meant to be perfect because we're always going to make mistakes or fail. Once that happens, that's when grace can step in and give us hope to keep persevering. Navigating this journey called life on my own means knowing what's best for me and being ok with being misunderstood. No matter how you explain your circumstance, no matter how you explain why you made the decision you made and no matter how many times you tell them that God confirmed it; everyone is not going to understand nor will everyone be pleased on how you navigate your life. You can't satisfy everyone and you have to be ok with it, why? Because you're not alone and you never have been. Through our rebellious phase to our lifestyle of worship, He's seen it all and was there the whole time. When you no longer need to “feel” that God is with you but you KNOW for sure that He is, the life you're living now will get easier. The scripture says “Be still and know that He is God” (Psalms 46:10). It didn't say “Be still and feel that He is God”. To “know” means to understand as truth, it means your mind is fixed on whatever you believe to be certain. Once you KNOW that you're not alone, once you KNOW that He is God, once you KNOW that He will never leave you and once you KNOW that He will never forsake you…this journey you're on will be worth discovering.
Young Women, you're probably stuck or tired of trying to understand your life. It's too much and sometimes you just wish you had the money, the car, the education, the career or whatever it is that you think will make your life easier. Do not give up on yourself. Do not settle. Do not take the easy route. Let God get the glory through your struggles and weaknesses (2nd Corin. 12:9). Have faith and give your worries to Him (1st Peter 5:7). You serve a MIGHTY God that wants to do MIGHTY works through you…yes you! You're not alone on this journey, God is with you always!
My name is Raquel Meraki and I'm a young woman who is on the journey of self discovery and independence.