What does it mean to trust? I learned that with trust, you're leaving anything you can't handle or do on your own open to someone else to see, fix or interpret. It's openly and willingly giving someone complete access to different parts of your life. I intentionally wrote “entire” because I didn't trust God with everything in my life. Why should I leave it in His hands when I already know what I want to do with it. That’s where I went wrong and that's what caused a lot of frustration and confusion in different parts of my life. The first time I completely trusted God was in May of this year. Man, when I tell you it was the hardest thing I've ever done, I mean that. Having to put in the needed work to see results was easy but leaving it in Gods hands and trusting that He will come through was the difficult part. Time and time again, after every interview came back empty, I had to push my self to trust God. What I was trusting God for was really cutting close to the end, and that should've been the day I gave up and lost hope. But since I had a habit of doing that, I made sure that I did not let that happen again. I wanted to keep my faith, hope, and trust in God all the way so when He did fulfill my needs, I'd be receiving it with thankfulness, and not with the “I wish I trusted him” or “I feel bad that I lost hope”. Trusting God is a choice you have to make and you have to stick it out. You have to be willing to let God work. He can't work if you're not giving Him the room, space or access to do so. Putting my trust in God for my every need and for what I have is the greatest and most satisfying choice I've ever made. Why? Because He's fulfilling my needs and keeping me content with what I have. I trust God with what I have for they were once a need that I trusted him with first. Wow, I know that I've come a long way because I always wanted more of something whether it's food (well definitely food lol), clothes, shoes, hair products, and/or bath and body works candles. Now I can say I’m content and happy with where I am and I will always strive to be better.
Young Women, always remember that what you have now - whether it be a job, children, college acceptances, loans, finances, a husband, opportunities, ideas, etc. - was once a need you were trusting God to provide you with. Now that you have it, keep trusting God with it. Give honor and glory to the provider always, not to the provision.
My name is Raquel Meraki and I'm a young woman who is on the journey of self discovery and independence.