In this season of my life as a newly engaged 25 year old woman, my feelings, emotions, goals, purpose and different parts of my life has been overwhelming lately. Some how, I still have the strength to keep moving forward not really knowing what's next. But, I've been trusting God through it all. A few weeks ago,I was reading my bible and read Hebrews 10:35-36. It reads,
“So do not throw away this confident trust in the Lord. Remember the great reward it brings you! Patient endurance is what you need now, so that you will continue to do God’s will. Then you will receive all that He has promised.”
The words patient endurance really struck a cord in me because that sums up how I've been maintaining my life so far. I've been patiently enduring and holding on to this confident trust I have in the Lord so I can keep moving forward in my life. To patiently endure means to steadily undergo tough circumstances without impairment. To break it down even more, it means to position yourself as you diligently experience the hardships of life. Pretty deep right? Some of you may have been on the same boat as me, just patiently enduring and focusing on the Lord. However, the question is, HOW have you been patiently enduring? Are you genuinely seeking God during your time of hardship? Or do you want God to hurry up and take you out of your mess? If that's the case, it's time to change your mindset.
As we read the scripture above, it stated “do not throw away this confident trust in the Lord” then it says “ patient endurance is what you need now, so that you will continue to do Gods will.” This is so key! If we don't confidently trust God , we will confidently trust someone or something else. That's why we can't throw it away even when it looks like God is not moving fast enough or not changing our circumstances quick enough. The word says we need to patiently endure NOW, not tomorrow, not next week, not after work, not over the weekend but NOW. We are Gods children and He knows us so well and knows our attention span. We are impatient beings and want everything now. He's teaching us how to take on a new way of undergoing hardship and not to look at it as punishment, however as a gateway of trust. So what does that mean for us? How do we patiently endure without being impatient? Before I give you the answer to that question, I'm going to give you an example.
In Luke 11:14-28, it speaks of Jesus driving out a demon. The man was finally healed. The people were amazed at what just happened. Some questioned the miracle saying that Jesus gets His power from satan to drive out demons. Jesus corrected them and continued to share what the evil spirit does when it's out of a person. It reads,
“When an evil spirit leaves a person, it goes into the desert, searching for rest. But when it finds none, it says, ‘I will return to the person I came from.’ So it returns and finds that its former home is all swept and in order. Then the spirit finds seven other spirits more evil than itself, and they all enter the person and live there. And so that person is worse off than before.”
Why does the evil spirit return into the person again once they see that the person is in good shape or swept and in order? It boggled my mind for days and the Lord woke me up around 3 in the morning (June 25 to be exact) to tell me what He meant by this. So here we go…
When I clean my room, I give it a pretty good clean. Put clothes away, make my bed, and pick up my little curls off the floor ( natural hair problems). My room looks pretty good, it's in order right? But what tends to happened the next day, it gets messier than the day before. The clothes I put away are not completely put away, and I didn't attempt to make my bed. Why does that happen? Just like the man who got the demon driven out of him, it enters back into him with seven more demons and he's worse than he was before. He was good after the demon left the first time right? Unfortunately, that's not the case. The one thing that we are not doing is maintaining the freedom that we've been freely given by the Lord. We are not maintaining the relationship we have with Jesus. I did not maintain the cleanliness of my room, that man did not maintain his connection with the Holy Spirit to enter and stay in him. The man allowed the evil spirit to come back into his life because there was no maintenance of the heart.
Now back to my first question, how do we patiently endure without being impatient? Patient endurance requires maintenance of the heart. We have to maintain what we have with the Lord as we endure the hardships of life. We cannot throw away the trust we already have in Christ, we have to keep persevering. We serve a God that loves us unconditionally and that sees us going through. He sees your efforts, He sees you seeking Him every day. He appreciates the conversations you have with Him, the prayers that you write, the prayers that you lift up, and the way you honor Him with your life. He sees it all! Keep patiently enduring and continue to maintain your relationship with Him. We can't do it without Him, we can't endure without Him. God is the reason why we are not weak, weary or broken. Let's not look at our situations with defeat but look at them with victory.
Young Woman, we are living in a world where the believers seem to be struggling more than the non-believers and we ask God why? But instead of asking why, we should be shifting our perspective and changing our way of thinking. So remember this, you’re a daughter of the most high God. Your father is the King of Kings. You are royalty. You are a co-heir of Christ. What Jesus inherits, we get a share as well. He adopted you into His kingdom family. You already won every battle and overcame every obstacle. You have the victory! Keep your head up and don't look defeated. God is for you sister! Try focusing on what God is doing right in your life and if you think like that, each day will be filled with joy. Love you and God bless.
We also pray that you will have all the endurance and patience you need. May you be filled with joy..
My name is Raquel Meraki and I'm a young woman who is on the journey of self discovery and independence.