That word “process” is literally the very thing that made it hard for me to go after my purpose. I never wanted to go through the process, I never wanted to do the work to see it. So what does God do to teach me about process? He tells the love of my life that it’s time for him to propose to me at time where I was between transitioning jobs. So I have to find a new job while planning a wedding. By the grace of God I got one and reality set in that I’m an engaged woman and I’m about to be someone’s WHOLE wife. Now I was in the “process” of planning a wedding and I experienced a stress that I’ve never experienced before. The kind of stress that you can’t even explain to people. The kind of stress where you don’t realize you’re snapping on people and making easy fixes bigger than they need to be. The kind of stress where people ask if you’re excited and your answer sounds like you’re about to call it quits. I wanted to give up, it was too hard, too much weight, and so much that needed to be done in so little time.
I STRONGLY disliked this process. I tried to convince David for us to go to the pastors office and get married in there lol...no judgement to those that have by the way. I knew that I wanted a wedding and that option was easier than planning a whole wedding. Process is like that long exhausting lecture class that you don’t want to take but you have to in order to learn something new, apply what you’ve learned and see the results or fruit of your effort in the form of a letter grade.
Going through a process is not a matter of waiting until it ends, it’s bigger than you. It’s how you navigate your way while you’re in it. As for me, I allowed stress, doubt and the opinions of others to take the wheel.
But even within those negative moments, that’s when God stepped in and allowed me to see how He can turn things around for His glory. I was able to see why He chose that time, that day, that man, that family, that location, those friends, those family members, that florist, that baker, that DJ, etc. Everything was for a reason and if anything changed, I wouldn’t be able to say it was the Lords doing.
I pray that as you’re in the middle of your process, whatever that may look like, endure with patience, endure with a goal in mind, and endure with faith.
Don’t panic. I’m with you. There’s no need to fear for I’m your God. I’ll give you strength. I’ll help you. I’ll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you. Isaiah 41:10
My name is Raquel Meraki and I'm a young woman who is on the journey of self discovery and independence.