In my dorm room staring at my cap and gown, and all I can say is “thank you God!” I’ve been here for 4 years, 8 semesters, and now it’s 9 days until I walk across the stage and receive my diploma. I remember coming to Burlington, VT alone; scared and a nervous wreck. I was the only one from my graduating class that went to Vermont for college. I tried out a few clubs on campus to be part of a community, but I felt like I was turning into someone that I was not, just to feel accepted. I finally found a great group of friends and a great campus ministry, and so the lonely void was filled. But I had some other struggles outside of just seeking friends. I struggled with being single, rejection, receiving constructive criticism, jealousy, balancing my faith/relationship with Christ, and laziness. I had a strong foundation back home and no one could break me or make me do something I didn’t want to do. I knew my word, I read my devotions, went to church every Sunday, bible study every Wednesday, and praise dance practice every Saturday. I had friends and family that would keep me accountable and on the right path and youth that looked up to me. I was aware and alert of every move I made and my intentions behind it. If anything that I was doing was not beneficial for the kingdom of God and did not give Him glory, I did not care for it. But all of that changed once I stepped foot into my first college party. After that, I was not myself, I lost myself. I always wanted to party and my intentions behind it was not to glorify God. The songs that I sang hindered my pure thoughts. When I tried to get back on track with my faith, it was the hardest task that i had ever encountered. I gave up and continued with my ways. I knew I was going downhill when I skipped too many classes, when I failed my exams, when I did not do the readings for class and I would sleep all day. I knew I was going downhill when I was being pressured to have sex with a guy that did not want to be in a committed relationship with me. He did not like me for me, but only for my body. Although it never got that far and I stood my ground, he left me still feeling belittled and without worth. But GOD! It was not easy to get back up. I had to be really honest with myself. I had to call unto God every single second of the day. I had to say no to partying, I had to get back in my word, I had to organize myself better, I had to let go of some friends and I had to start this relationship I had with God from scratch and keep it. Wow, as I reflect back, I realize God never left me, I left Him. I can ask Him for forgiveness every day, but it will never add up to the price He paid for me on the cross. He turned my life upside down. My junior and senior year was the best years of my college experience. I had a few tests, trials, and errors that He put me through to prepare me for the greater things He has in store for me. If I could go through those again I would do so, just to experience His profound love, mercy, and grace all over again. I’m so grateful for these 4 years. I am the woman, the daughter that God has called me to be. I am free, happy, joyful, and at peace. God did it y’all! If He can do it for me, He can do it for you. Have faith, believe, and trust Him. He will never fail you.
I made it! CONGRATZ CLASS OF 2014!
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take." (Proverbs 3:5-6)