Hey y’all it’s been a minute!
Let me catch you up real quick; wedding planning, work, ministry, wedding planning, taking care of my hair and skin, staying consistent with my blog, wedding planning, making time for family and friends, working out, spending time with bae, spending time with God and did I say wedding planning? Yup this is my life in a nutshell. There is so much that needs to be done and so much that I personally want to do such as read a book or write in my journal. I literally have no time to do anything that I enjoy and when I do, I feel bad for not using that time to do what’s important. WHAT IS LIFE RIGHT NOW?!
Ok that’s enough, I just had to get that out. Aside from that, I missed slaying for you all lately, but I’m so pumped to share with you the deets on my entire outfit because your girl was not playing, OKUUURRRTTT *Cardi B voice*
Glasses- Fashion Nova
As you may know, I’m still embarking on my young woman journey and everyday I’m learning something new about my self or finally accepting something in my life for what it is. I’m getting married in 4 months *screams internally* and I want wholeness to be fulfilled in every area of my life. I’m not saying I want to be perfect before I get married, but I just want to get started or be in the process of filling in those gaps in my life.
Friends have come and go in the past year or so and I’ve gained so much more. When I use the word “gain” I don’t only mean in number but in value and love. The friends that have entered into my life are rich in love, light, and fear the Lord. Along with the friends that’s been riding with me from day one, I’ve gained even more love and appreciation for. One thing I’ve been learned about friendships is how important it is to have a core group of friends that you can depend on. I can say that many of my core friends do not all know each other, but if they did, it would be a pretty lit get together. Although I have some pretty dope friends, I need to work on maintaining my friendships because I am the worst at calling people back and making the effort to call or text. Sometimes you won’t hear from me at all...lol I know, what kind of friend is that? I have many days where I enjoy being myself and going days without talking to anyone. I guess that’s the introvert in me kicking in every so often. However, maintaining my friendships is something I want to work on and now that I’m getting older, I want to be more intentional about it.
Bracelet- Aldo's Accessories
We are drawing closer and closer to the wedding date and the more I think about it, the more anxious I am about getting this over and done with. The most asked question I get is, “What are you looking forward to the most?” I give the same answer every time and it’s me walking down the aisle and seeing David, my king, waiting for me at the other end. That may be the longest walk of my life lol… well, other than the day David proposed...that was a pretty long walk. I’m looking forward to that moment because I’m walking towards the person I plan on growing, learning, succeeding, and becoming one with. A few months ago, we had a marriage series at my church and it was so timely. I knew what marriage was, I knew that it was God’s design but, I didn’t realize the weight that we would be carrying as we are representing God (Groom) and His church (Bride). It hit me so hard because that’s huge to be a living example of God and His church. I’m not gonna lie…it scared me a bit and it also brought me peace because if I had to uphold any example of what marriage should look and be like, it would definitely be God’s way.
I’ve taken away so much from that series, I filled up a few pages in my journal…it was that good! It also made think about people who get married and have no understanding of God’s design for marriage and just think it’s about signing the paper and living together. My heart goes out to the engaged and married couples who have no idea of the weight that they are carrying. I pray that if you’re on the journey to becoming one or you’re already one, to seek spiritual guidance so that you gain the understanding you need to have a successful Godly marriage. Please keep in mind, I’m not talking about acting like you have a perfect marriage or anything, I believe it’s important for you and your spouse to know what the foundation of your marriage truly is. Is it love? Yes, but who is Love? God! Listen, don’t let me start preaching on this post lol.
I’m sharing these definitions of career because I don’t have one yet. El Oh El. I have a stable job as a preschool teacher which I’m very grateful for, however that’s not where my purpose lies but it’s the stepping stone towards it. I’m one of those people that’s gifted in many areas and still find it hard to know what to focus on and what my “life’s work” should be. At my church we have monthly fellowships in which we call “Connect Groups” where we connect with members within our church that live within the same location as you or you can just join any one. I went to one in April and we talked about generosity, giving, and God ideas. I must say that I was deeply encouraged but I was also thinking if I wasted time these past few years. My First Lady, Lady Fred, shared a testimony about a woman who decided to finally trust God with her finances and the Lord gave her a God idea. This woman quit her job in the medical field and trusted the Lord with the business idea He gave to her. Long story short, that business is worth millions and she continues to bless others when the Holy Spirit compels her to. So I’m over here like “but God, I’ve been using my gifts for your glory, I’ve been practicing and edifying it, I’ve been writing and prayerfully making sure that it’s you and not me”.
Then it hit me and I realized I never really asked God for an idea for me to really execute His way. Just because I’m doing it for His glory and many are being blessed through it, He’s not necessarily in full control of it. Think about it, how long are you willing to wait for Him to instruct you? How quickly do you obey Him when He asks you to do something? Our generation does not know how to wait overall and even more, probably don’t know how to wait on God. When she shared how God was downloading a ton of ideas into this woman’s business, she just obeyed right away and got it done. The crazy thing about this is, I’ve experienced that before and I allowed it to scare me away when the obstacles I couldn’t overcome was in the way. I let the thought of not having the money or resources stop me from executing it. This time I plan on fasting and praying about what God intends on pouring out of me that will not only bless me but everyone in the world. The Lord wants to download and pour into you, He wants to bless you and He wants His glory to be revealed through your works, however, we need to put into practice being generous and trusting God completely with what’s in our hands. Can you imagine if we obeyed God with everything? Can you imagine the fruit of that? Can you imagine the ways in which you can bless others? Lord, you’re too good to us and we haven’t experienced half of your goodness. I share all this to say, I plan on working towards my next life’s work and I want it to be that God idea. Until the Lord speaks, He will continue to use me through my blog/website, writings, dance and more.
Love y’all and God Bless💕